71 Days Free

Here is something only my very inner circle knows. Jeremy and I quit drinking 71 days ago. I quit because I was drinking way too much after cancer to dull my emotional turmoil. Also, because I fought so hard to stay alive so why sabotage my health with alcohol? Jeremy quit for his own reasons, he can tell you about it. It’s his story to tell, not mine.

I feel so free and clear headed. My body is loving it. I am trying new things with all of these extra hours. My mind is hungry for information and learning. I’m doing martial arts stick fighting now at this Karate dojo here in Loveland. It’s real life dance fighting. Where has this been all my life? I am getting tons of sleep and waking up super refreshed.

I have been reading sobriety books and following sobriety blogs.

Funny thing when you stop numbing your feelings. They come through loud and clear. I have a counselor who has been helping me through.

I have been doing the Mind Body Revolution which has been rewiring my mind to self love. I have been working out differently and eating better to help my body. It came into my life at just the right time. It pulled me out of the worst depression I have ever had.

My spiritual growth is getting deeper and more meaningful.

I am learning so much about alcohol and how addictive it is and how unhealthy it is. All of our marriage problems have always centered around alcohol. So, it’s pretty simple. We want to stay married, so alcohol is a non negotiable. We both deserve better than what we had been giving each other. I had to ask myself, “Would life be better if I was sober?” the answer for me was an absolute YES.

I love looking back at my day and thinking, “Dang, I was a fantastic Mom and Wife today!”

I want to be the best version of myself. Wouldn’t it be awful to meet the bad ass person you could have been? We only have one life. Let’s live, not merely exist.

I want to see the world, love deep, inspire strength, help other breast cancer survivors find their way back to themselves.

What is something you have been waiting to do? What is holding you back?

Be free to be you. The best version of you. Don’t dull your sparkle, don’t dull your light. I use to do that but now I’m understanding how bright I can shine. You can too!

Do you dare be so bold as to change or shoot for higher goals?

If you don’t change something, where will you be in a year?

What will happen when you succeed? Can you even imagine what your life would look like if you went for it?

Write the book.

Start that Bible study.

Try that sport.

Learn the instrument.

Jump out of that plane.

Climb that 14er

Run that Marathon

Take the trip

Read that huge book

Paint the mural

Write the poetry

I triple dog DARE you.

I will be your biggest cheerleader.

Just be free.

Love,

Tahnee