Grateful Tears

Healing. Healing is hard work. This world can really beat someone up. This world can also look so amazing after the darkness clears.

I was sitting at church the other day and the tears would not stop. God has given me a second chance at life and I’m just now grasping how incredible that is. Feelings lately have been big. I’m happy to have them again. Welcome, feelings. Where have you been hiding? In the land of survival, that’s where.

When I am plugged in to Jesus, I can hear him clear as day. I know God speaks to people through visions, dreams, a pressing on the heart. Our conversations lately have been all about possibilities.

It’s time to start writing my book.

In preparation for this, I went back through my Caringbridge posts for research. I had forgotten some of the things that had happened. I had forgotten how scared I was. I forgot how strong I would have to be. I could only read from September 2017 to November 2017. I was in tears. It all seems like a bad nightmare now. But I have the scars, emotional and physical, to remind me that it was all very real.

I am so beyond grateful to still be here. That was not true a few months ago but it IS now. I want to live the hell out of this second chance at life. Every morning brings new possibilities. I want to learn, to grow, to love. To be Little But Fierce as Fu**. My goals are huge. And I know they will come to fruition.

I want to challenge you to wake up each morning with excitement in your soul. Be strong, be fierce, be love.

Psalm 91: 13-16: You will trample upon lions and cobras; you will crush fierce lions and serpents under your feet! The Lord says, “I will rescue those who love me. I will protect those who trust in my name. When they call on me I will answer; I will be with them in trouble. I will rescue and honor them. I will reward them with a long life and give them my salvation.”

Love,

Tahnee