These past couple of years have been full of transformation.
2019 was awesome, full of hope and new beginnings.
The beginning of our life without cancer treatments.
The beginning of our business taking on bigger jobs.
The beginning of writing my book.
Our teenager being on fire for Jesus and being excited to go to church. (WHAAAAT?!!!!)
The hope that I am taking good care of myself to give my body a fighting chance at not getting a re occourance of cancer, without taking the awful (for me) anti cancer meds.
Choosing to be alcohol free.
Learning self love for my mind body and soul. True fierce self love.
Of course, there were sad and awful times too. This is life.
Digging out of depression.
Loving our teenager through her teens.
Fighting for our marriage.
The loss of family members.
As we have more life under our belts, I am seeing the good with the bad. As I have said before, when going through the nitty gritty of the cancer, I could not let myself feel the awful, as I knew I wouldn’t be strong enough to pull myself out of it.
This led to people telling me I was being fake, not genuine. That hurt. I was putting what I could of my soul out for the world.
Everyone deals with literally every situation differently. I sure did the best I could and I know I beat the hell out of cancer sooooo fucking well.
I know that I can do anything I set my mind to. Last year, I beat cancer, I ran a half marathon in Disney World, I jumped out of a plane, I got an editor and a publisher and I started my book.
I can feel another shift coming. I am feeling more determined than ever. My mind is curious and eager to learn and open to any and all possibilities. Now I just need to pick where I want to focus my energy.
As we start the year, we are at the edge of something very cool. Anything can happen.
Who do you want to be at the beginning of NEXT year? Who would you like to be in January 2021? Would you like to continue progressing and growing into your next great season? Or, are you in a tough spot where you are just trying to get through to the next day? Friends, I completely understand both all too well.
Wherever you are at, please keep fighting. There is more. Like me, you get to choose where you want to focus for your self growth. Learn a new language, pick up an instrument, start a Bible study, take time for art and reading and date nights (with yourself, friends, or your partner). Take time for dancing and love. Especially take that time to love yourself. Fill up your bucket first or you will have nothing to pour out for others. It’s not being selfish. It’s being smart.
If you are wondering, what does that look like day to day? I have no time! I realized I was constantly telling myself this recently. I did some work to shift that mindset and now I think, “Wow, I have so much time! I have all the time in the world. I have an over abundance of time!” This has helped tremendously.
Just do one thing for yourself everyday. Start with one. Get a work out in, go for a hike, go skiing! Paint, draw, write, read! Pet dogs, hold babies! There are so many things. Find yours.
If you want to, please let me know what you decide to do for YOU. Treat yourself. Expand your mind. I would LOVE to hear what you are doing!
For me, I’m going to keep working out, reading, writing, AND I am learning Italian!
THEN, let me know how it fills you up and you feel so full you burst and pour your love and light out onto others.
Let’s do this.
Here is a song I recently added to my playlist. It’s super fun. Hope you enjoy it too!
Love,
Tahnee XOXO
Tahnee, you are a rock strong woman. May God continue to give you strength to carry on and live an enjoyable life.
Tahnee, as I have said so many times you are the most AMAZING woman ever. You gave me so many ideas even at my age because you’re right we should really enjoy everyday that we have on this earth and what the Lord has given us to work with. We do have time, we just have to make the time. You are such an inspiration. I can hardly wait until you are done with your book. Absolutely LOVE the song!!! God will always watch over you, you have a purpose on this earth. Love you to the moon and back forever and always……..