Keep Going

Anyone else sick of being cooped up? We have been in quarantine since March, but it feels much longer. Jeremy had gone up to Summit County to ski so we took extra precautions. We went quiet a little earlier than others in Colorado.

Weird times. I have not felt like creating or being productive at all. I see people on social media Marie Kondo cleaning and organizing and learning new skills, blah blah blah. I’m just over here working, schooling Liv and trying to keep it together. However you are dealing with isolation and quarantine, you are exactly correct. I go from absolutely hating home schooling Liv to loving it. To totally feeling like I’m a superhero for making dinner, to feeling like a failure if I get too busy to cook. To being so thankful and happy to bursting into tears of sadness and frustration. There is no handbook for this. Of course, exercise is my stress relief so online classes and my neighborhood path have been life saving.

I miss my family and friends. I’m sad we are all missing out on life together. My amazing neighbor Leann has been my saving grace from going completely insane. I love that we can talk outside safely. Good neighbors are gifts from God.

There is so much sadness and loneliness. We have lost 2 family members in the last 2 weeks. We have friends who are dealing with health struggles non-covid related. My soul is sad.

So, what’s the solution?

Gratitude. Always Gratitude.

There is always, always something to be grateful for. Sometimes it’s harder to find the light in the darkness, but it is there.

If you are lonely, please know that you are never ever alone. You know where I’m going, right? There is always one person with you who knows you and loves you more than his own life. He is just waiting for you to talk to him. Are you mad? Cry out to Jesus. Are you hurting? Give him your tears. I myself just keep saying to him: I just don’t understand. I don’t get it. Why is this happening? This totally sucks.

He says that as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are his ways higher than my ways and his thoughts higher than my thoughts. I know no matter what happens, we are going to be just fine. All of us.

I’m just going to keep going. We all have to just keep going.

Everything is temporary. This will end.

Please reach out to me if you need anything. I would be so honored to pray for you or offer any kind of support you need right now.

Love you so much,

Tahnee XOXO

PS Everyone is Zooming right now, right? Here is a hilarious SNL Zoom parody. Yes, this is my sense of humor. I’m not sorry.